Gratitude Week5&6

  

Something someone gave me
Here it would be quite easy to pick an actual gift, something material that I love. However last year I was given something else that I am truly grateful for.

When I was admitted into hospital my sister dropped me off and as I gave her a huge hug to say goodbye (with the silent plead not to leave me here) she handed me a letter. I’m not going to share the letter but it showed me just how loved I am and also how proud her and my family are. This letter made me cry and was painful to read as it confirmed that I was going to be in hospital a long time, and also it was going to be the hardest thing I ever did. But I kept this letter, and every time I was struggling or wanting to give up I would get it out and read it. My sister was my rock and this letter meant the world to me. I still have it tucked away in a safe place, I haven’t had to read it for a while but if I do I know exactly where to find it.

It’s not the expensive, material ‘things’ that matter, it’s the sentimental ones that really stay with you.

Without that letter my recovery would have been even harder.

The city you live in

I actually always used to be jealous of people living in London or Manchester. I thought that a big city would be cool to grow up in and live in. But that was before I discovered running, cycling and walking. I have come to love where I live, not quite a city but ‘Warwickshire’ and its surrounding areas are where I know I want to be. I have discovered some amazing places, parks I never knew existed. The biggest eye-opener for me was Draycote Water. It’s just up the road and it’s beautiful. When I am there I feel like I’m on holiday! 
  
I’m grateful for where I live because it is quiet with lots of peaceful places.

We are all to quick to wish we lived somewhere else but once you start exploring you will see there are whole new areas that you didn’t know existed! 
Mx

Gratitude Week5&6

Gratitude Challenge – My Week 3 & 4

   
Week 3 

Family
Too many people take their family for granted, and I’m sure we are all guilty of this at some stage or another. We take for granted that our family will always be there and we forget to focus on and cherish the little things. I’m proud to say that I don’t take my family for granted anymore. Whether it’s because I’m older now or from what we have been through together I am not sure. From the gratitude list Family would be what I for one am most grateful for. My family have been through a very tough time the last few years but we got through it, we got through it because we had each other. 

The most important thing that gratitude can teach us is to focus on what we have, not what our life lacks. I have an amazing family, not only are they my relations, but they are my friends, my support network and a comfort. 

So how am I going to show my family how grateful I am to have them around? Keeping it simple and telling them. 

Week 4 

Family member:                                              So week 3 was gratitude for your family and week 4 leads on from this by a specific family member. That’s a tough one as I can’t possible choose just one, but I am sure over the course of this 52 week challenge I will get to cover them all.

I will start here with my sister. She is one amazing person. Not only is she there for me with advice and guidance, a place I can pop to for a coffee and a chat whenever I need, the general sisterly duties. But she has been so much more. My sister was the first person I trusted and turned to when I was suffering with anorexia. I knew she probably suspected long before I admitted it myself but I opened up to her first because I knew out of everyone she would ‘understand’ or if she didn’t understand she would still know what to say and what to do.

It was with her encouragement that I went into hospital because she told me that in the end everything would be OK, she promised and for some reason when my sister promises I know it’s going to be ok. My sister was the one who took me into hospital and made it that little bit easier. I still believe that if I hadn’t had her support then I would have been resistant to being admitted into hospital and this would have put me in a very difficult situation. I know it would have taken a section to get me there but she gave me the gentle push I needed. I know that at the time she felt guilty for taking me there, but it’s the best thing anyone has done for me because it made me get the help I needed. 

My sister is amazing and she is my best friend, I couldn’t imagine my life without her and I couldn’t be anymore grateful to her, what she has done for me, all of the advice and cuddles she has given me, she has been my support when I have needed her most. She has been stronger than she should ever have to be for me and my family, and now that I am well again I hope that I can be there for her just as much.

Oh and I am also very grateful that she has given me two gorgeous nephews šŸ™‚

A true sign of gratitude is becoming emotional when you think about what you have and my eyes are welling up just writing this. I love you sis, if you ever were to read this, I couldn’t have done it without you. I can’t thank you enough but I am grateful every single day for what you have done for me.
M x

Gratitude Challenge – My Week 3 & 4

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A big part of recovering from any illness is being able to see clearly, that you are surrounded by so many things to be grateful for. I was blind to this for so long, I became so self-focuses and inward thinking that my life became food, exercise, negativity. My life became existence and survival, and even then I wasn’t doing a very good job!

So when I was on Twitter the other day I saw the ‘Gratitude Challenge’ a challenge that lots of people seemed to be taking on in January. This is a 52 week challenge whereby each week you can think about and appreciate or show gratitude to something. 

  
I saw this as the perfect opportunity to truly reflect on what I have to be grateful for that I was blind to for so long. I may not post each week but over the course of 2016 I will be answering to each of these weeks. 

Who would like to join my on this challenge? Why not set up your own blog posts and tag me in them, or comment underneath mine. Have you too been blind for so long, have you had an illness that has taken away your focus on the important things in your life? Or has life simply got in the way meaning you haven’t been able to stop and think about all of these important things? 

So here goes…

Week 1: Why start this challenge?

It’s important to be able to appreciate what you have in your life, I personally lost sight of this but I’m finally reconnecting with everyone and everything around me so I saw this as an opportunity to spend half an hour each week refocusing and showing my gratitude to the things that make up the most important parts of my life.

  
Week 2: Spouse or significant other

I have been with my boyfriend now for almost 5 years and he has been amazing. He has seen me at my very worst on many occasions yet he has stood by me throughout. Through my hospital admission he was there most evenings and made sure that I had a visitor every day. He has been there through the tears, the tantrums, the depression and anxiety attacks and he has never judged me. I am truly grateful to him for still being with me and I know that most men wouldn’t have stuck around in the circumstances. He has been there for me in any way he can. It hasn’t been easy but I could rely on him to be there whenever I need him. One of the nicest things for me through recovery was to be able to see how he changed as I got better. It was nice to become a real girlfriend again and begin to give back. 

I could go on and on about how grateful I am to my significant other but actions speak louder than words. Another part of why I am doing this challenge and looking at what’s in my life is also to take part in some small act of kindness to show how grateful I am. These only need to be very small but they will show I care.

So what am I going to do for my boyfriend that shows my gratitude for him?

I think a cup of tea in bed every morning is just the ticket!

Thank you for reading and I hope to see some of you joining in the challenge.

M x

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